Andrew W.K. on Prayer
By Andrew W.K., originally published at the Village Voice
Prayer is a type of thought. It’s a lot like meditation—a type of very concentrated mental focus with passionate emotion directed towards a concept or situation, or the lack thereof. But there’s a special X-factor ingredient that makes “prayer” different than meditation or other types of thought. That X-factor is humility. This is the most seemingly contradictory aspect of prayer and what many people dislike about the feeling of praying. “Getting down on your knees” is not about lowering your power or being a weakling, it’s about showing respect for the size and grandeur of what we call existence—it’s about being humble in the presence of the vastness of life, space, and sensation, and acknowledging our extremely limited understanding of what it all really means.
Being humble is very hard for many people because it makes them feel unimportant and helpless. To embrace our own smallness is not to say we’re dumb or that we don’t matter, but to realize how amazing it is that we exist at all in the midst of so much more. To be fully alive, we must realize how much else there is besides ourselves. We must accept how much we don’t know—and how much we still have to learn—about ourselves and the whole world. Kneeling down and fully comprehending the incomprehensible is the physical act of displaying our respect for everything that isn’t “us.”
This type of selfless awareness contains a contradictory aspect that sets the tone for true immaterial experience. It’s the feeling of power in our powerlessness. A feeling of knowing that we don’t know. A feeling of gaining strength by admitting weakness. We work so hard to pump ourselves up and make ourselves believe that we know all the answers and that we have the power and strength to do anything—and we do—but the fullest version of that power comes not from our belief that we have it, but from a humbling realization that we don’t.
The paradoxical nature of this concept is difficult, but it is the key to unlocking the door of spirituality in general, and it remains the single biggest reason many people don’t like the idea of prayer or of spiritual pursuits in general—they feel it’s taking away their own power and it requires a dismantling of the reliable day-to-day life of the material world. In fact, it’s only by taking away the illusion of our own power and replacing it with a greater power—the power that comes from realizing that we don’t have to know everything—that we truly realize our full potential. And this type of power doesn’t require constant and exhausting efforts to hold-up and maintain, nor does it require us to endlessly convince ourselves and everyone else that we’re powerful, that we know what we’re doing, and that we’re in control of everything.
To know that you don’t know is the definition of a spiritual awakening. And keeping that realization at the front of our mind and in the core of our being informs the rest of our existence. It takes a deeper type of strength to admit to ourselves that we don’t have it all figured out than to run around keeping all our plates spinning. It seems strange to think that turning yourself over to your own bewilderment would actually bring clarity, but it does. Solving this riddle is the beginning of any true spiritual journey.
Many people feel threatened or uncomfortable with this sort of gray area. They like things to be “yes” or “no,” “black” or “white,” and “right” or “wrong.” They want to live in the “real world” that they can touch and make sense of. When things “don’t make sense,” they retreat. These people will have to allow themselves to fully admit that they don’t know, in order to actually begin knowing and that’s often too frightening of a task. It can be too painful to even imagine, after all those years of effort, simply abandoning our carefully crafted structures and stepping into the immense chasm of the uncharted and unknowable.
Many of us worked for years to build up our idea of the world and who we are in it. We’ve clung ever more tightly to the idea of what is true and what is false. We’ve toiled and schemed to get what we need to “be happy,” and to gain the sense of security that comes with “figuring things out” and “making it.” We do that by building a better and stronger protective shell to shield us from the painful horrors of the unknown. It can be too painful to even imagine, after all those years of effort, simply abandoning our carefully crafted structures, and stepping into the immense chasm of the uncharted and unknowable. And now, it’s time to take it.
This article was originally published at the Village Voice, and is partially reproduced here without the permission of the author, who is not affiliated with this website or its views.
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There are many great points in this article, like humility before the vastness of the universe, feeling the smallness of our existence, accepting that we don’t know and need help, and that things are often not black and white. Yet, he seems to be outlining a secular prayer, with no person on the other end, you know, like God.
Being a theistic or Gaudiya Vaishnava, this doesn’t sit well with me, and yet I understand it. As a teenager I used to pray to some force or ethereal something I thought might be God–for lack of a better term–something beyond and bigger than myself. This was the beginning of my spiritual search, and my calling out for help was answered.
So I have contradictory feelings reading this post, both positive, and in disappointment. The calling out for help to that something that is the Universe, or Universal mind, or whatever, has value, and yet for me, it is only a beginning point, and not the end. There was a time, when I would just condemn such a presentation, but now I have some appreciation that it is a step in the right direction. Everyone can be encouraged for where they are in life and sometimes given a helping hand.
Many people instinctively perceive the Universe to be truly alive, and an ‘entity’ in it’s own right, very much like the Virata-rupa consciousness described in Vedic literature. IMO that is a vast progress from the rather naive, simplistic, and usually just theoretical, understanding of God present in Abrahamic traditions. And the proof of that superiority is general domination of the mode of goodness in people who ‘pray to the Universe’, as opposed to mode of passion commonly associated with these other religions.
“And now, it’s time to take it” – Andrew W.K {QUOTE}
Take what exactly?
Time to take the step of: “simply abandoning our carefully crafted structures, and stepping into the immense chasm of the uncharted and unknowable”.
It would be so refreshing if devotees stopped pretending like they know everything and have all the answers. They so clearly don’t. IMO that is just illusion and false pride. Even with all our books and commentaries we are barely scratching a surface of what is out there, even if we actually agreed on the ‘proper way’ to understand what is written.